Acceptance Why Do We Need It?

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine and I shared with her that I found a young man very attractive and I thought I had a crush. She began to laugh because I was so thrown off by the fact that I was acting like a school girl. Well as soon as she began to laugh I said " No need for me to pursue what I can't have". As I was thinking the thought of being accepted by this young man I spoke out of my mouth that he wouldn't be interested in me. My friend stopped laughing and asked me why do I think that I couldn't have him? I actually thought about what she asked before I answered and I said well because I just don't. I had to ask myself the same question. Why did I speak what I really didn't want or did I really want to be accepted. You see I have always been a beautiful bountiful little girl and I have grown to fit this stature that God has given me. (more to love) As I walk out accepting myself why couldn't I grasp the fact that someone else would accept me the way that I am? I realized at that moment that I still had some issues with acceptance. We are quick to say well if you don't choose me I'll choose myself or I don't need anyone to accept who I am. Is that the real truth? Then why to we fear rejection? You see in my mind I had already cancelled out a possible relationship that could have blossomed into something wonderful. I hit the nail right on the head and said I am afraid of rejection. So I do care if I am accepted or not. This caused me to re-evaluate my perspective on life. If we are accepted by God just the way that we are then why can't we accept the fact that He loves us unconditionally just the way that we are? You see I needed to grasp the truth that I was already accepted before the foundation of this earth, and because of the love of God I can accept others. I went through a heart transplant in the matter of 5 minutes. God renewed my prospective on acceptance and it opened my eyes to a whole other level of love for His people. You see we need acceptance for without it we wont be able to accept ourselves and allow the love of God to create in us a clean heart and new spirit. So if my friend ever brings up my crush again this time I wont speak against my feelings I will just accept them for what they are and learn even the more on how to love. P.S. I will never disclose who he is so don't ask. LOL!