Acceptance Why Do We Need It?

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine and I shared with her that I found a young man very attractive and I thought I had a crush. She began to laugh because I was so thrown off by the fact that I was acting like a school girl. Well as soon as she began to laugh I said " No need for me to pursue what I can't have". As I was thinking the thought of being accepted by this young man I spoke out of my mouth that he wouldn't be interested in me. My friend stopped laughing and asked me why do I think that I couldn't have him? I actually thought about what she asked before I answered and I said well because I just don't. I had to ask myself the same question. Why did I speak what I really didn't want or did I really want to be accepted. You see I have always been a beautiful bountiful little girl and I have grown to fit this stature that God has given me. (more to love) As I walk out accepting myself why couldn't I grasp the fact that someone else would accept me the way that I am? I realized at that moment that I still had some issues with acceptance. We are quick to say well if you don't choose me I'll choose myself or I don't need anyone to accept who I am. Is that the real truth? Then why to we fear rejection? You see in my mind I had already cancelled out a possible relationship that could have blossomed into something wonderful. I hit the nail right on the head and said I am afraid of rejection. So I do care if I am accepted or not. This caused me to re-evaluate my perspective on life. If we are accepted by God just the way that we are then why can't we accept the fact that He loves us unconditionally just the way that we are? You see I needed to grasp the truth that I was already accepted before the foundation of this earth, and because of the love of God I can accept others. I went through a heart transplant in the matter of 5 minutes. God renewed my prospective on acceptance and it opened my eyes to a whole other level of love for His people. You see we need acceptance for without it we wont be able to accept ourselves and allow the love of God to create in us a clean heart and new spirit. So if my friend ever brings up my crush again this time I wont speak against my feelings I will just accept them for what they are and learn even the more on how to love. P.S. I will never disclose who he is so don't ask. LOL!

I was Born to SERVE!

Born to Serve!

This past weekend was CIAA weekend. I planned to hang out with my classmates and enjoy the festivities, but all the while my mind kept taking me back to my work. New ideas kept coming to me and whenever I saw a need, I had to fix it or give a suggestion. I told my friend I just want to go somewhere and be productive; I don’t feel as if I need to be hanging just to hang. She told me that I needed to take a brake sometimes and let work worry about itself. I thought about that for a second and then my mind went right back to telling me of all the things I needed to do. The whole weekend I kept pushing the thought back in my mind and tried to have FUN.

Well of course Sunday morning comes and I have a ton of things on my mind as to what I need to complete for this week. And then it hit me, the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me all along. JESSICA YOU HAVE WORK TO DO! Not to say that I won’t have balance in my life but there is a time and place for it all. You see I have an assignment to do while I am on this earth and I want to make sure that I complete it. The only thing that I can think about it STAYING FOCUSED on what the plan God has given me.

You see I can’t do what everyone else is doing at this time because a lot of people are waiting on me to complete this assignment, as so with a lot of you out there. You have finally said yes to what God has shown you and now you are running full steam ahead. Like Bishop Orlando Wilson would say “I got to get out of here so let me move this train”. This train I am on is a Bullet, chromed out and ready for service. I was born to do this better than that I was created to do this. That’s why I was Born to Serve!